Tick, Tick... BOOM!

I don't know how to make the tears stop
How to eat food like a normal human
How to not to feel like my heart's breaking
I don't know how to breathe
To stop the darkness
Threatening to eat the ground I walk on

I wish I could remember what I said...
Wish I had the answers
To the questions that haunt my body
And soul
I wish I could forget how you smile
The depth of your eyes
The softness of your voice
Your kindness


Some times I think the pain is to get back at me for the pain I caused others. And I have to laugh for cursing myself. Then, I look up and I feel stronger. And, it makes me cry again...